Six degrees of Bullshit.

It is so very true that the world is such a small place. I have been insomniac and been perusing my friends myspace pages and finding more and more of them have on their friends pages people who in the past have rejected me. It's been fun. Really it's actually funny in a way. It's interesting to know that people are still connected to you one way or another whether you want them there or not. So this is where boredom has taken me. Ah life. Just think in 29 minutes its a new day. :)

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So I have been very apprehensive about leaving my current job. Not that I would really feel bad leaving coworkers high and dry in my absence, but that I would in essence leave some great kids behind. As much I may tease them and even complain about them they are the best part of my job. But the fact still remains on what they are paying me my savings will be depleted in 2 months tops. This is a savings I have been building for almost 2 years and in the span of 6 months has dwindled to almost nothing. Now I am not one who has lived in a lavish life style but come on it would be nice not to have to worry about buying milk because it may cause my rent check to bounce.

I have applied for an awesome job with VSA arts of Indiana. I am very excited about this job and I hope I get it. It is so much of what I would love to be doing. Plus as an added bonus it is mere blocks from my home. I would be to the point were I could get rid of my car. I would never do that but how nice would that be? I am 31 for god sake I should be making more. The School is totally taking advantage of me. They are stealing my education, experience, talent and love for this job. The sad thing is I am very good at teaching and I like more that I thought I would but I can't live on the street and teach so I guess I have to choose. Damn life. Oh well, I am sure whatever I find I will love as well.

Oh, Kickboxing, yea totally kicking my ass. But I am loving it. I didn't work out today because my muscles are so tired but I haven't felt this good in years.

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So I guess I have found a new way to stave off boredom. I am currently rehydrating after a run in with my friend Jack last night. I woke up around 6 still drunk never a good sign went back to bed for a few more hour. I feel much better. I don't think I am going to make it to the gym today. Had I not drank so much I would have but alas it was not meant to be.

So funny story, some of my students last night started a rumor that the guard instructor and I were dating. Actually their words were "Drunk hook up" I just laughed. This rumor took roughly 3 minutes to get through all the kids in the band. Later I found out that the kid who started it followed the accusation up with this question "Do you think Maestro's Life Partner will be ok with this?" I was worried the kids were really that dumb but hey they do pick up on things. I am never going to come right out and tell them, but the can speculate all they want. As long as it doesn't interfere with my teaching I don't care.

Ah life.

I love Elementary Schools

I was walking back from a good workout and a trip to the grocery store, when I happened to notice something. I have walked past this grade school at least 20 times since moving downtown and I have been past it before I moved down here but I saw something that made me smile. Around the fenced in Playground area were signs. I these signs were flag colors of various countries and also the word for peace in each their respective languages. The fact that these are up makes me think and smile. I would like to think that the teachers for these children are teaching more than just 2 + 2, but more of a greater sense of the world around them and the world they don't know or perceive yet. I love that age group of kids they are so wonderful. Learning can still be a game and fun for them. Ah well it makes me happy to think even if just this small school is teaching like this at least someone is.

Happy F***ing Birthday to me

So I have finally put my finger on why my "relationship" with a certain gentlemen has been weird. It's because he has a boyfriend already who I got to see tonight. That was all sorts of fun. It was confirmed by said gentleman though I should stop referring to him as a gentleman. Cheater or whore will work just as well. I am just saying when I asked him out the first time 4 simple words would have done just fine. "I have a boyfriend" I would have been fine with it but twice spending the night together and me having to ask point blank does not shine favorable light upon him. Seriously what the hell is wrong with me I pick winners I tell you what. I know this is a rant and I may feel differently tomorrow but really. God I hate this crap I am too old for this.

What a day

So I got an extra day off before spring break starts. I would normally feel like this was great except the reason for it was because a student over the weekend died in his sleep, and the funeral was today. I would have gone but I am just not ready to go to another funeral. I actually am not sure I will ever be ready for it again. It makes it even worse since I found out the reason for the sudden death it was from huffing. I just shake my head and think what a waste I mean a young persons death seems so needless to me but when it could have been prevented. It just makes me sad. No, I didn't know the student or any students that did, but when this happened last fall with another student (different circumstance) I just couldn't help but think how would I handle it if it were a student of mine. I have to say I would be pretty devastated.

So I got a free day from work. I decided not to waste it. I have been cleaning and doing laundry all day. I also cleaned out my trunk in my car. I have also baked cookies and cupcakes for my students tomorrow. I know it's silly but I like doing it. Though the more kids I get the harder it becomes I don't really mind. I know I would have thought that great on our last day before spring break we get baked goods.:o) Especially since they have a quiz tomorrow. Now that was crappy of me. But it's not like these quizzes are hard. So I buy them off with sugar. Maybe this is why my class keeps getting bigger. Such is life.

New Hobbies and other ways to waste my time.

So I am sure I am the last person to have discovered this but I have a new love. Wikipedia! I am sure it will lose it's shine and luster soon enough but I could sit on there all day just jumping around from topic to topic. I start one thread looking for the original lyrics for a piece of music my kids are playing and some how get to reading about the four truths of Buddhism. What a day.

So my original search did not actually produce anything useful. I enjoy having the students learn that sometime instrumental music have roots in language and that sometimes that language is striking at times. Example we are playing a wonderfully lush and beautiful piece called "Sleep" by Eric Whitacre. The original text it is based on is by Charles Anthony Silvestri, and is below.



The evening hangs beneath the moon,
A silver thread on darkened dune.
With closing eyes and resting head
I know that sleep is coming soon.

Upon my pillow, safe in bed,
A thousand pictures fill my head,
I cannot sleep, my mind’s a flight;
And yet my limbs seem made of lead.

If there are noises in the night,
A frightening shadow, flickering light;
Then I surrender unto sleep,
Where clouds of dream give second sight.

What dreams may come, both dark and deep,
Of flying wings and soaring leap
As I surrender unto sleep,
As I surrender unto sleep,
sleep,
sleep,

Granted it was originally a choral piece and that is so wonderful, but the wind arrangement is just great for bringing that emotional connection to the kids. Something that I never forget in doing music is that I so want others to get that feeling. The feeling when you are just enveloped in music and the sounds are all around you and you just let go and there is this burning in your chest and you want to laugh and cry all at once. It's like your spirit wants to leap from your body. The music has made your soul so big that you body just can't contain it any more.

It's just so hard to express that to students, well anyone really, so that is why I like to find these types of pieces. As a friend of my was saying that just letting people know that there are other ways to think is so important and I think that's true for letting people know that beyond that there are other ways to feel.