And so it will go

Tomorrow I will work with the concert band for only the second time this semester. Special K will be out with some kiddies so no playing tests tomorrow.

I anticipate Wednesday I will get through Tubas, Horns and the last Trumpets.
Thursday the first of the Altos
Friday finish the Altos and start the Clarinets
Monday Pep band so no playing tests then.
Tuesday Finish Clarinets start Flutes
Wednesday Finish Flutes
Thursday move into the Auditorium
Friday Dress rehearsal
Sunday concert

Number of days in front of the concert band this semester to prep for Christmas concert: 2.

How much and I am loathing my work conditions these days. I hate it with the white hot intensity of a thousand suns.

How to... or how not to.

So here we go I have over the years collected a goodly amount of knowledge. I feel I should share this with the world. (Those of you who know me well enough can pick up on the sarcasm right??) First lesson: how to date.

Do not talk to the insane. They are easy to spot for they are usually kept in homes for the insane.

Don't talk to crazies. Now these are harder to pick out they are not kept in holding areas like the insane. They can walk among us, though there are some pretty good indicators. If they talk about ex's and use phrases like, "He stopped returning my phone calls and then it said that number doesn't exist anymore." or "Dead flowers are better than no flowers at all." or "A restraining order doesn't mean much I mean what if we just happen to be in the same dark theatre and didn't know it. What are they going to do arrest me there too. Like I knew he had moved and that those were his bushes. And I was just cleaning the lenses on my binoculars there was no need for the handcuffs." Yea that's a crazy. ABORT ABORT. Though they may have some good drugs.

Commitmentphobes. They are really hard to pick out. Most of the time they advertise that they indeed want a relationship and are tired of the one night stands. Tread cautiously into those waters my friend. What they say and what they do are two drastically different things. Do not be discouraged when they stop returning phone calls. This is where you could become a crazy. Just let them go.

Whores. Now depending on what you are looking for they could be it for you, just know that you will have to go through many of them to have a long term relationship. Since there will be many of them don't learn their names cause it won't matter and they probably didn't give you the real one anyway, just call them whores. Of course this makes you a whore as well. Congrats. You should really start a long term with the Dr.'s at the free clinic.

People who are already in a relationship. Now if you are looking to be a guest star in an open relationship or a third in the fun threeway relationship then these are the men for you. They are committed but not to you, or really their partners. They are looking for more ass then their currant partner could provide and thus you. Give it time you won't be enough either. These are whores who are just afraid of paying bills alone.

The nice guy. Much like the commitmentphobe, if it looks too good to be true then it probably is. Many of these men don't exist. People say there are nice guys out there but for all there good intentions will probably spot you as one of the previous and in a short fit of the crazies sabotage any chance for a long lasting relationship because they have become bitter and jade because of the previous types of men mentioned above. The nice guy or gun shy as I like to call them, are hard to pin down. Move to fast and they scamper away never to be seen again. Move to slow and they become bored and move on. It's tough to predict where the balance is. That's why it's all about talking and being honest.

Ok so what have we learned boys and girls................? That's right life's not fair and it is a complete crap shoot. If you look at people and say it isn't fair that those people can have a bf and I can't. Take comfort Indianapolis has a high Syphilis infection rate so chances are they have it and they are cheating on one another and are completely unhappy. And that is what gets me through Friday nights... oh that and heavy handed drinks by Steve at OP's.

Things I am Thankful for

In no particular order just how they came to me. I am thankful for... 1. My mom 2. Podcasts 3. Friends 4. That I live an hour from any of my brothers.:) 5. Steve Drinks 6. My health 7. My musical ability 8. My friends 9. Nieces and Nephews 10. Holidays 11. The fact I get to do something with music everyday. 12. Great conversations 13. Always open to learning new things 14. Not hiding in a closest. 15. Shoes 16. Books 17. Netflix 18. Beer 19. New friends 20. Old friends 21. Laughter 22. My students 23. My sanity... really I am sane. 24. Popcorn 25. Butler Basketball. 26. The fact that my state hasn't passed a marriage amendment... yet 27. Movies 28. My apartment 29. Utne Reader 30. NPR 31. Simpsons 32. Online porn... oh don't look shocked. 33. My laptop. 34. Ipods 35. Very Vanilla Soy milk 36. My Applied music class 37. My composition students 38. blogs 39. Dogs 40. Comic books 41. Pizza 42. John Adam's Short Ride In A Fast Machine Ok so now I can't get it to stop with italics and I now have it stuck on bold as well. Damn it. Ok well I guess I am done. I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving.

Do we say too much...

or not enough? I got to say first that those match.com ads still creep me out.

As for saying too much. Today I basically told off Special K. Not really told off per say but I did tell her that I am not renewing my contract at the end of this year. I did follow it up with my frustration in her lack of communication. I was just so pissed off that I couldn't stand it. Really I don't want to be in education anymore so I don't feel as if I am burning any bridges.I am just beyond tired of her. But the question then becomes did I say too much? I didn't call her a stupid bitch. So with that I ask maybe I didn't say enough lol.

In life sometimes we don't say things when we should and many times we say too much and at the wrong times. I sometimes wish I were more assertive. I have never been good at talking to people I am interested in and I never make the first move. The few times I do it blows up in my face, maybe this is why I don't take these risks. But alas we can not change who we are over night.

Match.com ads creep me out

The ads when you open myspace. The girls are just there looking at me and sometimes laughing it's just creepy.

Anyway. So today in a chat room I put up this in my profile, "Do you like music, I mean music you would hear on NPR. If so Pvt me." The moment I do that the first person to pvt me says "So do you own the Paris Hilton CD?" My first thought this guys funny. And then when I said no, he said have you heard any of it it's really good. I told him I had heard enough to know I didn't like and then he got all indignant with me. I am like really it's paris hilton you tool. I told him I thought she was an over produced bad singer with nothing to add to the artist community. His response, "you don't know good music you cow." My response, "Ummm ok, pig." From there he countered with "I hate you." As I am sure you are now, I was laughing to myself. I told him that it was good to be in touch with his feelings. He then said "I would like to feel your cock inside me." Ummmmmm Bipolar much. Seriously where do these people come from. But let's get back to the real issue here. How does one get "I like classical music" confussed with "I like a no talent anorexic hooker so let's chat about Paris Hilton." At first I thought it was a joke but it became obvious, no it was only a joke on him. So that has been my day how is yours?

Is it bad...?

Just a thought, not that I am changing my stance on this, but I have had a long standing policy not to date anyone outside of a certain age range. Mine happens to be they had to be born in the 1970's no I may make an exception for early 1980 but that is about as far as I will go that currently puts my age limits at 27- 36 Which I think is just fine. When presenting this to potential suitors I am met with confusion. Is this odd? I know people who like young people and I know people who like to date only older much older. That is fine by me, I am just not one of those. I have tried dating outside of that range and have met with disaster. Though I must say that those times had little to do with age. Or maybe it did who knows. In any case I find that I get people around 22-24 that want to go out with me. I just have 0 interest in them, and they seem offended by this. I don't get this. I personally would rather date someone my age or close to it. I find people that are closer in age I have a better connection with, we can draw on similar experiences and memories of things that happened at the same time in the past. Like I said I am not really going to change my mind on this but I am curious as to what other people think about setting an age range for dating and is it practical. Am I just shutting myself off from people or is this just better in the long run?

What's going on.

And I said Heeeeeeeeeeey Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeey I said hey... Random moment. So I am looking forward to Thanksgiving, I am going to go up to my moms on Wednesday and help her clean her house for my brothers when they get there on Thursday. I am also going to help her with the cooking and whatnot. I just like doing domestic things but only around holidays. Plus it is nice to do things that my brothers would find unexpected. They know next to nothing about me and I like to keep them off balance from time to time. :) I love holidays because you get to do things that you don't normally do like with my family you break out the good dinnerware and cloth napkins. You know things you don't do on a daily basis unless you had a staff of at least 5. Also the nieces and nephews, they are probably as close to children as I am ever going to have. I love them dearly and they are a hoot. They are just great every age with them has been wonderful. The oldest is a teenager now.

For me this will be the first real holidays without my dad. He died last year right before the holidays and I guess it really didn't hit me as much last year but it is now. I think two I am not up there minutes from my mom and that makes a difference too. My dad loved this time of year so much and I guess that is why I love it too. It's the only time I don't mind cold weather and actually look forward to it. because with all the cooking and baking the house always smells so good and the house is so warm. Anyway.

We tend to do more large scale things like big groups of friends get together. I am excited that I have a place big enough to have people over. I am looking forward to it I just wish everyone I knew could be around. I wish J and S could come up and Joe and Kate but I know they have their own lives and that is cool they have lots of family to see as well. I just wish there was more time.

I know this all sounds very depressing but really I am looking forward to it all and am very happy. Just a sidebar sigh that's all. Today I wanted to cook a turkey and go buy a Tree. Ok even I am saying good lord at that statement. I would say that of anyone else.
Well off to bed.