You have got to be kidding...

So I went on my date. You know the guy who broke up with his 7 year relationship because he doesn't want kids. Yes well I went into it knowing that it probably wasn't going anywhere. It's really too bad cause he is a nice guy and kinda cute, but it just isn't going to work. Now for the part that is really fucked up. He went to high school with my brother. I have to say that was a twist I wasn't expecting. Oh well I think he wants to set me up with his ex. I have to say that would be fucked up.

What is up with my life?

superstitions

So I met a guy. A guy completely out of my norm older, financially successful, has a good job, and not a psycho. Well I didn't tell anyone about this and I mean no one. Mostly because every time I have a date lined up lately and I talk about it something always falls through. Well in our conversation tonight he is talking about the reason he and his last relationship ended was because his BF wanted children and he did not. That was really the only reason they broke up. The sad thing is I really want kids and so that made for an awkward conversation from that point on. So really even without setting off one superstition I have triggered an end to yet another potential. Be proud my first thought upon the news of the reason for the break up I wanted to ask for his ex's number. But I didn't I felt that would be tacky.:)
This really isn't new territory for me most every man I have ever dated didn't want kids. That's fine I have no problems with that, but I don't want to give that option up.

Feeling like crap and loving it.

I am sitting at home feeling awful this morning. I am trying to work up the energy to get dressed and go to State Solo and Ensemble contest. I really don't want to. The fact of the matter is that I have mentally checked out of this job. I realize that most of, if not all of my stress and frustration stem from this one activity that I do daily. I don't even care that I am not dating anyone. I really just need a different job. And being sick takes me from having to do much of anything today. If I wanted to stay curled up on my couch I could or I could go and listen to children play. I don't know. I am just tired right at the moment. And my head hurts.

Not ready to be a homeowner yet

While attempting to be motivated and get things done around the house I discovered that I am not ready to own a place myself. I say this and let me just state I am not the handiest man in the world but I would like to think I can hold my own with the average man in the world (it helps that many places in the world have neither electricity nor running water). With that said, I was trying to do laundry when I discovered my washer wasn't wanting to cycle. First thought "mother fucking piece of shit" next thought "I so don't have time to fix this." Finally I started tinkering around and thought really the only thing is the water is getting into the machine so I turn on my sink in the basement next to the washer and dryer and nothing. No water. My first thought was did I miss a water bill and they turned off my water. I grab the most recent water bill and *sigh* not due till the 11th and no disconnect notice and bonus wow the bill was only $15!

Next thought, is it like this all over the house and wait, oh shit, can I shower??????!!!?? My friends and students will be happy to know that yes all other faucets in the house are working just fine. I can still take a shower. Again sigh of relief, so I am not really sure what is going on. It seems strange to me that the pipes in the basement would freeze and only localize themselves to stopping water flow to one place in the house. But alas I am not worried one call to my landlords and they will send a handyman to my doorstep to check it out. And this ladies and gentlemen is why I am glad I do not own. That and the blinding poverty that I find myself in, but that is neither here nor there. I am sure if I did own I would get the Time Life series on plumbing and take a stab at it. And then call a professional. Who knows maybe I would figure it out. I have been know to be able to do small jobs around the house and not burn down or make things worse.

Sidebar, Superbowl today and it is hometown favorites Colts verses another place I wouldn't mind calling home, the Chicago Bears. I actually remember the first super bowl I actually paid attention to was the Bears and the Patriots the last time the Bears were in it. Now I don't follow the Volleyball myself, but I am a sucker for hometown pride. Plus any excuse to drink and eat foods that could kill an elephant I am all for. Plus FN promised if we win we will go downtown to join the riots and flip an Indygo bus and set it on fire. If you see me on the news I will need bail money. GO COLTS!!!!!!!

Who knows

So I have now officially have widened my job search. I am now outside of Indianapolis. We will see I am not pinning any hopes on anything at this point. Maybe I will try the "throw a lot at the wall and see what sticks" method.

Anyone knows of any good jobs in the realm of music let me know.

I hate looking for jobs.