Free Movement of Art

I must say I am sitting in the office typing this up and there are three students just messing around on instruments. It is rather refreshing, even if it may be giving me a headache.:o) It's nice because I will guarantee they don't know the rhythm patterns or harmonics they are using they just know they like the end results. Ignorance is sometimes bliss. I remember once I became fully immersed in the academia of music I found that I enjoyed it less. Mostly because I felt like I had to know and explain everything that was going on with the music. Thus sucking the enjoyment right out of it. I was this competitive nature that if I wasn't able to explain it all or know everything there was to know that I was less than every other music student. Now that I have learned otherwise I must say I enjoy it much more. And this is probably why I am not much of a fan of a competitive nature. I mean some is good but as much as it has been ingrained into our culture so much that it is hard to convince people and students that it is ok not to know answers. Sidebar never try to type and carry on conversations at the same time it makes both seem janky. Plus I just wanted to write "janky".

Ok be well 4 day weekend thank god. I need it.

Educational Philosophy

Ok So I just came from basically sitting and watching children walk by. They call this resource were the kids are assigned to a place, not a room, for 23 minutes each day. Now I don't know who these kids are and I am stationed down by the library which means lots of kids are flowing in and out. The question then becomes who do I stop and what do I stop them for. I look at it this way if they are not in class and it doesn't seem that they are disrupting class and it doesn't seem like they are doing anything constructive then why the hell have it. Yes some kids actually study but for the most part it is a social hour or I guess 23 minutes. Hey I don't care if they are suppose to be in class and aren't it's only going to hurt them. Not my problem. I am such a bad teacher.

Clearing out the address book

So yesterday and part of today between classes I have been clearing out my address book. There were a lot of addresses I hadn't sent anything to in a long time. I started feeling bad about the people on the other end of those addresses and how I 1. hadn't spoken with them in awhile or 2.I just stopped talking with them altogether, for whatever reason. I am sure there are reasons but some of them I don't remember who they are or why I would have had their addresses. I can guess that I had chatted with them on line once or twice and maybe had a brief email conversation with them here and there and then just drifted away.
I know myself I hate when people do that to me. So I decided to write them and say hi. At least make an attempt, that was good of me right? Or am I just being a dick? Probably a little of both. I figure if I don't hear from them in the next few days I will permanently delete them from my book.

Cleaning up my addresses was like doing that once a year cleaning out of ones closet or house. Were you throw out things you don't need or use any more. I just felt weird doing that to people. Some of them were quite nice and I had to have at least one good conversation out of them. I don't normally keep emails from people I find annoying. Though I guess I could have been in a mood.

On a separate note. I am finding myself more and more bitter about attractive yet dumber than a sack of hammers people being able to find the most intelligent and genuinely wonderful people to date. While I either date liars or no one. I am reasonably intelligent and somewhat attractive. Ok so I am not bitter toward those other people more power to them and good for them. I am sure they deserve all the happiness in the world. I know I should just get over it and get out there and find someone to date. But I must say I find it difficult. Enough of the self pity shit.

Well I must say I am amazed and a bit disturb by how much of my fathers political beliefs overlap with mine. Now my father still believes single mothers should be rounded up and put into homes far away from prying eyes and that homosexuals should be aloud into the military and put on the front lines so that they could be shot and be done with them. But a lot of economics are very similar and even social. I had an interesting conversation with him on the roll of religion and government. He says that it is wonderful to have your faith, whatever that may be, but that faith should never supersede what you are obligated to do as a representative of a constituency. Now I am paraphrasing but that was the gist of it, and I agree. I have more respect for a politician that will vote the way his district or state wishes him to vote. This idea of if you are a god fearing person you should vote only one way. To also have ministers and priest not say you should vote one way but to then say "Well you will go to Hell if you vote for a person who supports (insert socially unacceptable behavior, for the religious leader)". I find it hypocritical that a church whose clergy has been involved in sexual molestation or the cover up of such cases. I really don't think that church really has a leg to stand on in my book. They preach on one hand that abortion candidates are evil and with the other hand fondle the alter boys.

Ok well I have bitched enough today I need to get ready for resource. What a waste.

Just Starting

First I would like to say I am not drunk. It just struck me as funny. So this is blogging? Well it will at least get me to writing whether anyone ever sees this or not. I think it will be good for me in one way or another.

So if this entry is a little disjointed I am sorry. I am writing while at work so I have to go teach a class now and then or in the case of what I just came from watch a hall and tell kids to tuck in their shirts. While I understand the "need" for a dress code and uniform I can also see why it is just a pain in the ass for the students as well as the teachers. Yes the argument that we want them to feel no pressure to have the right clothes and all of that and it keeps kids from wearing inappropriate clothing choices. But really these are the same kids who some drive a beamer to school while I drive a 97 mercury tracer. I think these kids are aware of the haves and the have nots. Plus if we don't let them express somewhat in their dress, the question then becomes how will they express themselves. The really funny thing is that I was walking behind some kids and another teacher yelled at those kids for having a shirt untucked. More detentions are given out for dresscode violations than anything else. They have actually sent kids home for not having the correct Khaki pants. Not for wearing jeans or shorts but for the "wrong" Khakis. Does that seem odd to anyone else.

Maybe I am a bad teacher because I have such a lax attitude toward the dress code, and toward some classroom behavior. I try to make it very relaxed in the sense that questions and mistakes are as acceptable as studious note taking and only right answers. Now getting into the groove of understanding the appropriateness of when it's time to work and play does take some time, but once established I don't find it a problem. Then again my tolerance of so much is high. I really become a stickler when it comes to rehearsal edicate.

Ok well that is probably enough for today.

Book of the day: "Tao Te Ching" Lao Tzu

Music of the moment Ben Folds "Rockin' the Suburbs"